Day5 : I walk slowly, but I never walk backward. As long as I keep walking, one day I will get to the destination.

Time flies. It comes Day 5.
Today, I did something I've been planning for so long time,
swimming alone.

I still remember the days when I learned how to swim
I learned it at Standard 5 I think
and for almost 1-2 years
I can only say that, it's not an easy period for me
as I'm born water phobic.
That time, when my coach wanted me to swim at the point where the water level is higher than my height, I would be swimming with tears bursting
Every time when I think back the moments, I will be always laughing at myself.
However, just imagine,
me, when I was still a little girl,
I already can get over those hard times,
what's will be even more harder for me now?
I can be tough!

Back to the present,
I've swam for more than an hour, of course, alone.
I even "lied on" the pool
watching the sky, watching tiny rain drops came down from the sky
How wide the sky is? How big the world is? How huge would the universe be?
then why should we still worrying about all those "petty matters" compared to them?
They can surely accommodate our everything,
no doubts.

When I was swimming there,
there was also another "uncle" swimming there "rapidly"
Ok, at least he swam faster than me haha
Because of my leg's situation
and my asthma as well
I really don't dare to swim fast
so I swam as slowly as possible

I swim slowly,
just as how I walk slowly
but I never walk backward.
As long as I keep walking, I believe that one day I will finally get to the destination.
I've changed, day by day
Today I'm better than yesterday, and tomorrow I will be better than today.
So, there will definitely one day when I became a good girl
who deserves love from my beloved one, him, maybe.

Then, I went and played the swing,
which is always my favorite, since I was just a kiddo,
with music ON.
Only at that moment, my troubles were all gone.
Sudden;y, the sky turned dark, typically dark
It came loud thunder, strong wind,
and of course, heavy rain as well.
Seriously, I'm a girl who very very very very very very afraid of thunder,
but then, I told myself,
"I must be tough! Stay strong! Face it by yourself! Get over it and you can be better! And he will be back to your side! Just do it!"
As I kept on encouraging myself
I DID IT!!!

In a nut shell,
there is nothing TOO HARD in the world
it just depends on your faith.
Keep it up! I'm a strong girl wanna be!

I believe that one day,
he will be at my side, again.

Deepest love,
19/04/2015